Okay, I just took the bus back from Karlin’s house, and I wanted to post before the high wears off.
It’s totally stupid to be sad about this. I mean, sure, someday she’ll dump me. I’ll have plenty of time to be sad then.
She makes me feel wonderful now. I am really lucky to have someone like that. Who cares about the future; worrying about it takes attention away from the present. I had forgotten that I am really enjoying the present.
We make deep eye-contact a lot. During dinner, she pulled one of those “oh crap, he looked up, I’d better look back down” moves. She walked with me back to the bus stop, about ten minutes through the cold (that means a lot coming from her). Love, schmuv. It’s just a word. She really likes me, and we have a powerful connection. It’s totally stupid to be sad about this.